whenever I'm on my own, I feel completely deserted. It scares me to be by myself and you'd surprised if any of you reading this knew me in real world, unless you were one of my close friends. Because that's not the person I tend to come across as. I'm almost always the funny one with all the jokes and stupid ideas and the one that can make everyone in the clique smile if they're feeling a bit down. But sometimes, all I want to do is scream, you know?

My life's good, nothing bad is happening. But I just dont know why am I feeling this way. It doesnt happen when I'm with my friends, it only happens when i'm on my own. I'm not asking for much, but I just dont know what I want. I dont know... I'm not depressed about anything. Lonely is the only word that comes into my mind. I feel myself silly as i'm typing these. Why am I even doing this? Lol...